Lament
Airless love
I seek you out after 2 years without seeing you
I went to the respite house
Something told me to just go find you
A bearded man on a broken rocker and a slight aging woman on the porch
Told me you’d just gone to play basketball on state street
I found you playing alone
You’d lost a lot of weight
You saw me and gave me a neutral peace sign
Walked gingerly tawards the fence between us
stopped too far away, and asked me what I was doing
I told you I wanted to take you clothes shopping
You said no that’s ok and walked away
You remain
A muffled melody undercurrent in my blood
Your weathered disdain
my obtrusive innocence
when consciousness is shredded in trauma, who is guilty?